Solo travelling has its downsides as well, it's not that perfect after all. To start with, you need a lot of courage to go on the road by yourself. You constantly have to motivate yourself in order not to give up. You do get scared quite often, you do feel unsecure with your decisions, but if you are strong individual, you soon can overcome all those nasty feelings. Sometimes you might get yourself in a really bad situation or get to the point it's so hard, all you want to do is book a first flight back home. It happend to me so many times before, haha. Either the homesickness kicked in really badly or the work was starting to get my mental health. Mostly happend while working 2 summers in US camp, I reckon I said like 3 or 4 times "I cannot do it anymore, I'm booking a flight tomorrow morning and going home, I'm done!." Or for example, when you get really sick, you become extremly emotional and miss your family more than usual. You want to call it a day, finish your adventure and return back home to regain your normal life back. Sometimes while on the road you ask yourself if it's worth it. Is it worth to have all your loved ones on the other side of the world, while you're stuck in some 3rd world country, dwelling in a cheap room, sorrounded by strangers?
You miss out a lot. Your friends' and family members' birthdays and gatherings, holidays, your best friend's graduation, brother's first job and you're not there when they are going through rough times. The saddest part is that time passes. After a long time being away, people start to realise you actually ARE gone and not a part of their everyday life anymore. Some of them forget about you, they forget about your birthday or they don't write you for months. You have to realise that life does go on and you can't prevent it. It's true what they say "out of sight, out of mind". Some are just not capable to mantain any kind of long distance relationship. The good thing is, you realise who your true friends are. Who will wake up in the middle of the night to skype with you? Who will remember your birthday? Who will respond to your emails or write one out of nowhere just to see how you are doing? Who will be there for you while having rough times? It was bitter and extremly hard at that point, when I realise who doesn't care about me in the same way I care about them. There were "friends" who didn't do anything to obtain your friendship. For some it is really easy to let go and move on. An it's true what they say: "Some people are meant to stay in our hearts, but not in our life." On the other hand, I gained so much more, than I've lost. True friends stayed in my life and our friendship became even stronger. Now I know, I can always rely on them and that I have enormous back up back home. It's absolutely amazing feeling and I will be grateful forever for this!
Well, let's just stop with all the negativities about solo travelling. I hate to write negative posts. I just wanted to let you all know, not everything is perfect, even if it seems that way at first. Sometimes you have to work hard, overcome different barriers and sacrifice a lot in order to achieve and live your dreams. Each single begining is hard, there are times it gets tough and unbearable, but if you have a strong and optimistic mind, a bit of courage and support from loved ones, you can achieve almost anything in this world. You can do even more, you think you're able to do. Everything is possible. We can move mountains if we want, we just have to set our mind and heart to it. So don't wait, just do it, your mountain is waiting on ya,
till next post, see ya later alligator,
Mayita